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October 29th, 2004

06:42 pm - KIM THIS IS THE LONGEST SURVEY EVER!!!! *The YOU Side* Are you a flirt: uh no Are you a slut: uh no Are you a bitch: i can be, yes Are you an Idiot: hmm sometmes Are you a smartass: sometimes 01. Mood: sick? 02. Nicknames: probably just whit. muffin. lil whit. lil murray. whiteknees. 03. Screen name[s]: savethepigsncows. i dont go on my other one. greyskiedeyes 04. Age: 17..going on 18 05. Grade: 12 06. GPA: 3.84 haha 07. Sex: female 08. Birthday: 1/6/87 09. Zodiac sign: capricorn 10. Hospital where you were born: that one in vancouver..swwmc (southwest washington medical center) i cant believe i just remembered that 11. Location: brush prairie 12. Height: 5'6" 13. Weight: i know exactly because i just went to the doctor 14. Hair Color: auburnish brown 15. Eye Color: blue..someone told me they were blue just like the ocean. but i think it would have to be a stormy ocean, because my eyes are dark blue. okay. haha. 16. Siblings name(s): chelsey 18. Hobbies: cheerleading (puke), volleyball (over), sleeping, shopping, playing guitar, snowboarding even though i suck real bad, hanging out with people, watching movies, listening to good music *The CRUSH Side* 19. Crush: umm 20. Girlfriend/Boyfriend: no 21. If you could go out with anyone in the world who would be? tom welling 22. When and who was your 1st crush?: spencer..in preschool...if anyone knows him, i want to find him. he gave me a sparkle eyed barbie for my 5th birthday, and thats all i remember him by. 23. What do you first notice about the opposite sex?: eyes 24. Your idea of a perfect date: being in love with the other person would make it perfect, right? 25: How romantic are you?: uh, i suck 26. Biggest turn-on: kindness. not that sweet-talk garbage. 27. Ideal girl/guy: if i knew the ideal guy, i would just put his name here *The PAST Side* 29. Memory you miss most: summers with dane. 30. If you could go back in time, where would you go: i would go to israel during all the old BC days 31. Thing that you regretted doing after you had done it: i dont regret anything 32. Memory you would like to forget: memory? how about person? they know who they are. 33. What'd you do yesterday?: yesterday? auction...duh i already wrote about it 34. Last person you talked to on the phone: uh kent 35. Last thing you said: no mom 36. Last song you listened to: pink bullets 37. TV show you wish they would re-air again: pretty much everything is already re-running, isnt it? if it isnt, then idk *The FUTURE Side* 38. Occupation: i want to be a pilot 39. Car: nissan exterra 40. Marriage: maybe 41. Kids: maybe 42. Future son's name: teal or mason 43. Future daughter's name: claire or evelynne 44. Honeymoon: europe 45. Where will you live?: the east coast 46. What are you doing tomorrow?: not going to school > > *The FAVORITES Side* 47. Food: oh there are so many. cookie dough and mangoes 48. Drink: raspberry arizona iced tea, coffee 49. TV show: the oc, one tree hill 50. Movie: pearl harbor 52. Band/Group: im not allowed to say 54. Color: brown and black 55. Actor: ben stiller 56. Actress: ehhh idk 57. Weekend Activity: sleeping in, hanging out with people. this weekend..being sick of course 58. Day of the week: saturday 59. Month: august and january 60. Book: the torn skirt, the red tent 61. Holiday: i dont really like holidays 62. Number: 33 63. Cookie: dough? 65. Toothpaste: not colgate, and not aquafresh. definitely crest. 66. Ice Cream: ultimate caramel cup and cookie dough, half baked ben&jerries 67. Candy bar: skor 68. Teacher: the rowes 70. Restaurant: who knows 71. Channel: comedy central and tbs 72. Radio Station: 94.7 and 105.1 73. Type of music: acoustic stuff *The HAVE YOU EVER Side* [Answer YES or NO] 119. Been on a plane?: yes 120. Cried in public? yes 121. Climbed a tree?: yes 122. Fell asleep in a Movie?: yes...but its been awhile. i cant do it anymore 123. Met a celebrity?: nope...unless the blazers count, but i think not 124. Met the president?: no 125. Been scared to get a shot?: no 126. Gotten a cavity? no 127. Shopped at Abercrombie & Fitch?: yes 128. Had an online relationship?: no 129. Had sex? no 130. Said, "I love you," and meant it?: no 131. Made prank calls?: yes 132. Gone skinny dipping?: mmm ill say no 133. Skipped school?: yes..duh 134. Loved somebody so much it made you cry?: ? 135. Gone to a theme park and checked out all the cute guys/girls?: i dont think so *The WHAT DO YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU HEAR 142. Bill Clinton: poor hilary 143. Lollipops: dirty 144. Dreams: crazy 145. Love: fake 146. Whipped Cream: fluffy 147. South Park: stupid 148. Boy Bands: annoying 149. Guys: eh 150. Girls: are dumb 151. Death: sucks *The WHICH WOULD YOU RATHER BE Side* 152. Dog/Cat: cat 153. Blue/Purple: blue 154. Chocolate/Vanilla: chocolate 156. Pen/Pencil: pen 157. Plumber/Trashman: trashman 158. Ear/Eye: eye 159. Rich and unhappy/Poor and happy: thats a tough one 160. Tall/Short: tall *The QUESTIONS THAT DON'T MATTER, BUT STILL ASKING Side* 161. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?:no 162. Last time you showered: today 163. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?: silver 164. How many buddies do you have on your list?: idk, im not looking 165. Do you like this survey?: no 166. What are your last 4 numbers of your phone number?:1216 or 4375 167. One pillow or two, cotton or feather: 2 cotton, save the birds, c'mon haha 168. Last CD you bought?: i dont buy cds 169. How long are you in the shower?: forever 170. How do you eat a Reese's Peanut Buttercup?: i eat around the edges first 171. Feelings on abortion?: scary...they seem painful. dont want one, thank you 174. What does your screen name mean?: im an idiotic vegetarian? 175. Right, Left, or Ambidextrous?: right 176: Who do you most admire?: i dont know. 177. What is on your mouse pad?: a volleyball... 178. What is your background?: haha you dont want to know. okay...its this cow in a heart and it says "thank you" 179. What is under your bed? well, i found some scissors under there yesterday 180. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a TootsiePop? idk, i always bite my lollipops -b.a.s.i.c.s- 1. Favorite band(s): didnt i already get asked this? 2. Do you like concerts: yes 3. What was the last concert u attended? shoot...was it the rla one? oh my word i need to get out more 4. Music you couldnt live with out: yes, all of it 5. Music that could fall off the face of the earth and u couldnt care less about: swing music, TECHNO, rap, and hip-hop 6. About how many cd's do you own: idk, but im sick of almost all of them, i really need to get some new ones 7. How many cd's can your stereo hold at a time: 5 i think? idk. my car holds one. 8. Do you have a discman: yeah but i dont have headphones, so its pointless haha 9. What cd's could u listen to for hours: i cant tell you! 10.Can you sing: maybe. youll probalby never hear me sing. -s.t.a.t.s- How many cd's do you own by... 11. Britney Spears: 0, thank god 12. City High: 0 13. O-town: 0 14. Eminem: 0 15. Incubus: 0 16. Blink182: 0 17. Mandy Moore: 0 18. Everclear: 0 19. Back Street Boys: 0 20. N*SYNC: 0...i gave it to kim 21: Dr.Dre: 0 22. Fuel: 0 23. Linkin Park: 0 24. Destiny's Child: 0 25. Dream: 0 26. Korn: 0 27. Missy Elliot:0 28. Nelly Furtado:0 29. Jessica Simpson:0 30. Christina Augilara:0 31. Eve6: 0 32. Sum41: 0 33. No doubt:0 34. Mariah Carey:0 35. The Offspring: 1 36. Rancid: 1 37. System of a down: 0 38: Kittie: 0 39. Nofx: 0 40: Ricky Martin:0 -t.h.i.n.k.i.n.g- What lyrics come to mind when you hear: 41: googoo dolls: stranger than your sympathy, this is my apology 42. Steve Miller band: idk 43: Verticle Horizon: ah i cant think 44: Vitamin C: yeah that song they played at 8th grade graduation 45: LFO: i like girls that wear abercrombie and fitch (even though i dont) 46: Savage garden: i dont even remember what savage garden sang 47: Papa Roach: suffocating...blah blah blah 48: The Blood Hound gang: who is that 49: Toni Braxton: gross 50: 98 degrees: ahhaha 51: Aqua: you can say im always yours 52: our lady of peace: i get all those bands confused 53: the verve pipe: >? 54: Craig David: sometimes in life you feel the fight is over 55: Michela: none 56: the Beegees: stayin alive stayin alive ~~Part One: Word Association~~ 1. pineapple: pizza 2. snot: sick 3. wilderness: free 4. a tasty drink: tea 5. dry: desert 6. square: box 7. tingle: funnybone 8. meat: haha 9. purple: sister 10. french: bread 11. holy: water 12. willy: wet 13. dimension: third 14. jive: ugh ~~Part Two: Fill-Ins~~ 1. She lives with a broken ________. smile...like the song 2. Get me my __________, you dirty spinster. broom 3. Where did I leave my _______? drink 4. ________ doodle. cocka 5. Straight _________. up 6. Don't ________ my chinchillas. pet 7. Ring around the ________. idk 8. At this moment, I'd rather be __________. better 9. Stop fingering it, you'll make it _______. uhhh 10. How many times have I told you not to eat ________? this is wierd 11. She's __________ right now, can I take a message? busy? im boring im sory 12. How many _________ can you fit in your mouth? crackers 13. Have you met my _________? sister...oh you have. thats shocking. not. 14. In a perfect world, _________ would grow on trees. clothes ~~Part Three: Q&A~~ 1. How many disciples were there? 12 2. What is the boiling point of water? 300? idk. 3. If you recently acquired x-ray vision, what's the first thing you'd do? i have no idea 4. What do you call this: what? 5. Why are Cuban cigars illegal? because americans arent supposed to go to cuba, because cuba is illegal 6. If you were a llama, what color would your uncle's pudding be? wtf 7. How many fingers am I holding up? wtf 8. What is your preferred mode of transportation? the c-tran. no no no. my car. 9. If I wasn't such a weenie, do you think you'd still love me? no 10. Won't you be my neighbor? he died. 11. Who sucked out the feeling? nic 12. Where do you picture yourself a year from now? i wont be living in brush prairie, thats for sure. ill probably be in idaho. 13. Who was your favorite cartoon character as a child? hes not a cartoon, but it was grover 14. If you could live during any time period, what would it be? yeah,now 15. Who is/are your best friend(s) in the world? hmm here we go: kim, autumn, hannah, amber, katy, elyse, will, kelsie, dane, brian, matt, kent, james Current Mood: still sick Current Music: the travel channel

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October 11th, 2004

08:46 pm - i wish you knew this song was about you replaceable parts are not easy to come by. i wish i could put into words how good this music is that im listening to right now. and how incredibley good it feels to listen to words that describe everything i ever felt like feeling. im pretty sure that i will forever be blown away by music... this is one of those nights. im going to get off this thing as soon as im done writing this, and im going to go into my moms blue and yellow kitchen and make myself some vanilla tea with one sugar cube and a little bit of my wild oats organic milk (haha..yes) and im going to take it upstairs. and im going to light my insence with the hot pink lighter that i used to use back in the old days when i smoked weed...and lay down on my mattress thats on the floor and im going to pull my down comforter up over my head. and im going to drink my tea. i might even turn on my cd player to the old dashboard cd thats in it and listen to chris carraba over and over again all night. and ill have my lights off except for my ufo lamp on the floor in the middle of my room. and ill think about all the things that i want but that i cant have because somehow ive messed it up and ill remember the good times when i had everything i ever wanted but ill think of why i lost it and ill remember how it was all my fault. and everything will end up going back to how every decision i have ever made counted for so much and how i would give so freaking much to take back some things but i would love love love to relive some moments that i will never forget for as long as i live. how much would i give to live over these past few years, i have learned so much now. im so much wiser, choices made were foolish. there were people i never should have even had conversations with, and they know who they are, there are people that i never should have let slip away through my fingers...i didnt realize that sometimes there is only one chance, not two. looking back at just this past year, i missed out on being something with 3 differnt people but i passed up all opportunities and now i cant even remember why. and i see these people, and i see that theyre happy now and its not with me and im not as happy as i should be. sometimes i wonder why im even here anymore. im not saying that to get attention or that im suicidal or anything, im just saying it because i do wonder that. why am i here? "if you ever need to spill, ill be your canvas" Current Mood: burn out bright Current Music: FLO not LFO

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September 1st, 2004

03:51 pm - i sat around and thought about destiny its amazing how sometimes you make decisions you just cant take back. say for example, you think you want to make popcorn. and so you put it in the microwave and start the time...once that first kernel pops, theres no going back. if you decide you dont want it anymore, its too late. same thing with like those towels that are folded into like little shapes and when you get them wet they expand into towels. once it gets wet, you cant put it back in that little shape. or like if you send a text message....or even an IM, or even if you call someone with caller ID and then your like "shoot, i shouldnt have done that" its too late. you just cant take somethings back. in a way its kind of nice to know that. because then you know that every decision you make is one that you cant take back, you can only look back on it, and youll just have to deal with it...and try not to regret. its so crazy how just saying "yes" or "no" can change something for ever. its so crazy how every second we are all thinking something different, we are all moving, breathing, living in different ways. its so crazy how all of us are so different from each other, but yet somehow we find ways to be compatible. or not. please tell me you feel something because what i feel is ecstacy oh shame on you you cast your spell on me Current Mood: you dont seem to care Current Music: waking ashland: counting the stars

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August 24th, 2004

04:10 pm - oh i would die in your arms tonight, yes i would im falling apart. usually i say that in regards to my emotions, but nope, this is all physical. honestly, last week i pulled a bunch of tendons in my upper leg during vball, that sucked. i still cant do all of our footwork drills in practice because of it. ive had a weak wrist since...oh, last season...and its getting worse. so everytime i set a ball my wrist like bends back too far and then i cant move it for like 5 minutes. so it sucks. and yesterday i dove for a ball and tweaked out my elbow (idk how) and like now i cant hit at all because its on my right arm, but oh, yes, i am an idiot and still attempted to hit EVERY SINGLE BALL that was set to me today, so lets just say that didnt work out so well most of the time, and im in pain now. the concensus: im falling apart. i love wearing sweatpants, honestly. right now it feels like the middle of winter in my house. and winter has to be the best season. ever. right now, its all about getting used to being alone again. sometimes thats so hard to grasp. "find your inner core, and think about how youre breathing" Current Mood: at ease, troops, at ease Current Music: jack johnson....UH please play it for me, you said you can

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August 22nd, 2004

04:04 pm - no one makes coffee like he does. no one. agh...the past few days have been so interesting. i wish i could give everyone a play-by-play of whats been going on, but some of the details are just a little sketchy. i need to do something, you know? like yesterday and today it rained...actually..poured, and i just loved it. it was nice wearing close-toed shoes again and long sleeved shirts. oh so nice. but yesterday and today (besides going to church) ive just been chillin at my house reading books and drinking coffee...totally having a coffee-house moment in my own house, which is wierd. but just listening to the rain on the roof...oh, words cant even describe. but the sun is out right now, and its pissing me off and putting me in a bad mood. and another thing. i said i wasnt going to do this one thing tonight unless this one specific thing happened, which there was like a 1% chance of it happening, but it happened. even when it was happening, i couldnt believe it was happening. i thought for sure that was over. for sure. but 27 seconds later, it was over, and now im doing this thing tonight. which i cant say im excited for, but i cant say im not excited for. its all in the company, more or less. i have vball every day of the week. not to mention, team sleepover tomorrow night. wahoo. and deep conversations about fundraising for crimson spandex and team nalgene bottles. in 3 weeks ill be in bethel...first tourney of the season. how crazy. we dont even have a setter, but in 3 weeks from this very moment, we'll be attempting to play like a team. its so wierd how time works. seconds pass with every letter i type, but nothing really changes. does anything ever really change? Current Mood: watching, waiting Current Music: dld. the end of everything i loved.

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August 2nd, 2004

05:48 pm its been awhile, good ol pal livejournal. cheer camp takes up too much of my time. im so flippin tired, GOSH! everyone in the world should go see napoleon dynamite. honestly. other than that. blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. break my heart again. things will be okay again i cant stand this feeling my heart will never mend things will be okay once more well i cant bear this feeling its sending me to war 5 words to describe yourself: -alive -independent -sarcastic -scared -easilyamused 5 words to describe a 'good' friend: -outgoing -hilarious -fun -crazy -notbackstabbing -5 songs you want everyone to hear: -"hanging on for hope" new amsterdams -"hopeless love" daphne loves derby -"vindicated" dashboard confessional (although its beginning to get over played, thus ruining a perfectly good song) -"gravy fries and dirty lollipops" feeling left out -"almost forever" red light ambition 5 albums you'd sleep with if they weren't so inanimate: -i dont buy "albums" 5 things you want to learn: -how to play guitar better -to read music well -anger management -karate -how to sing 5 places you want to go: -new york -college -scotland -the dld, rla, t&d concert wednesday -heaven 5 things that make you happy: -kim -summer -concerts -guys who are nice -my friends 5 people that you'd like to meet: -tom welling -chris carraba -jennifer aniston -jack johnson -the "perfect guy" 5 movies that you could watch over and over and over: -zoolander -pearl harbor -uptown girls -i am sam -napoleon dynamite 5 qualities in people that annoy you: -cluelessness -naiveness -when people try to convince you that they cant do something when you know they can and they just WONT do it -meanness -back stabbers 5 foods that you could live off: -macaroni and cheese -chocolate -arizona iced tea (raspberry...duh) -angel hair pasta -peaches 5 things that you drink most frequently: -raspberry arizona iced tea -lemon arizona iced tea -diet pepsi -cream soda jones -chocolate milk 5 things that people should know about you: -im a vegetarian -i wish the world would just stop fighting -im single..haha -i hate people that conform to the crowd -i dont want to die of cancer...that is my biggest fear 5 things that you talk most about: -music -boys -stupid people -people i hate -complete nonsense 01. Fallen for your best friend?: nope 02. Made out w/ JUST a friend?: um. 03. Been rejected?: i dont know 04. Been in love?:nope 05. Been in lust?: yes 06. Used someone?: who hasnt? 07. Been used?: yes 08. Cheated on someone?: no 09. Been cheated on?: not that i know of. but i highly doubt it 10. Been kissed?: yes 11. Done something you regret?: no regrets. *Who was the last person... 12. You touched? probably my sister, i hugged her because she came home today. 13. You talked to? my mom 14. You hugged? my sister 15. You instant messaged? kim 16. You kissed? uhh 17. You had sex with? duh 18. You yelled at? my dad 19. You laughed with? kim im sure 21. Who broke your heart? no one breaks this heart *Do you... 22. Colour your hair? sometimes 23. Have tattoos? someday 24. Piercings? ears. im getting 2 more holes soon i think. wait. 3 25. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? yes both. duh. no. i have neither. sad. 27. Own a webcam? no those are gay. just see people in person, pulease 28. Ever get off the damn computer? sometimes 29. Sprechen sie deutsche? sie 30. Habla espanol? si 31. Quack? uh, no *Have you / do you... 32. Stolen anything? hahaha 33. Smoke? not lately 44. Schizophrenic? sometimes 45. Obsessive? yes 46. Compulsive? sometimes 47. Obsessive compulsive? maybe 48. Panic? yes 49. Anxiety? yes 50. Depressed? not recently 51. Suicidal? not recently 52. Obsessed with hate? yes 53. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? no 54. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? no 55. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? not where i am now 56. Who would you be with? people i like 57. What would you be doing? maybe like taking a nap or something 58. What are you listening to? inverse:shadows and sounds 59. Can you do anything freakish with your body? i can roll my tongues. thats about the extent of my freak talent, even though half the world can do it 60. Chicken or fish? tofu anyone? 62. Is ice cream the best thing in the world? no A - Age: 17 B - Best Quality: staying alive and not wrecking my car C - Choice Of Meat: tofu duh, like i said D - Dream Date: someone E - Exciting Adventure: when kim drives my car F - Favorite Food: macaroni and cheese...and cookie dough i guess..and pineapple...and mangoes G - Greatest Accomplishment: passing the WASL. oh wait, no, thats really not great. H - Happiest Day of Your Life: when i met you. I - Interests: music, vegetarianismness, friends K - Kool-Aid: tropical punch L - Love: "love is just love" M - Most Valued Thing I Own: three crumpled, dried pink roses N - Name: whitney O - Outfit You Love: my hollister jeans and my grantree shirt and my green billabong zipup and flip flops P - Pizza Toppings: pineapple Q - Question Asked To You The Most: whats up? S - Sport To Watch: football T - Television Show: friends, the oc, everybody loves raymond, smallville U - Ur Favorite Song: dld:hopeless love W - Winter: snow Y - Year Born: 1987 Z - Zodiac Sign: capricorn Current Mood: im still here

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July 12th, 2004

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